Stop being fashion photographer
you’re disappointed in this whole
industry and you’re disappointed in
yourself at the same time and all of
those thoughts are keep moving on moving
on you and you just kept take it anymore
and you just want everything to stop
hi guys welcome back to my channel it’s
been a while since I’ve posted a video
any video actually and there are a few
reasons
which I’m actually going to talk to you
about in this video and I might tell you
that it’s quite spontaneous so I
I apologize if this video will be all
over the place anyways
I was in
kind of a deep depression and I was
struggling a lot with it and
how it all
started
I’m quite critical person to myself
I’m
very critical to my works I’m often not
really happy about them and it’s really
hard to deal with all that and I try to
remind myself that done is better than
perfect it’s my favorite quote ever but
anyways sometimes it’s really hard to
put yourself together and keep moving
forward so there was a period when I was
so sad and emotionally and it affected
me even in a physical way hmm
so when I felt so down I even started
googling
and I was trying to find out about
people’s experience of quitting
photography for good
like when you’re a
professional photographer and you want
to stop photography once and for all and
yeah I just typed in the youtube search
why I’ve stopped being a photographer
and I was looking for stories and
people’s experience
you know it was like
when you’re disappointed in this whole
industry and you’re disappointed in
yourself at the same time and all of
those thoughts are keep moving on moving
on you and you just kept take it anymore
and you just want everything to stop and
have like a pretty simple job when you
have to just function do something
mechanical or I don’t know just
something that doesn’t affect your
personality
and I wanted a way out of my
thoughts so yeah when I’ve googled it I
found out few stories of people who
changed their profession completely like
from being a photographer to starting
the whole new life and you know the
whole new experience and becoming
someone like I don’t know I’ve heard the
story of man who became a nurse he was
going to start a family and photography
job isn’t the most stable one so he
decided to change it
but for me it’s not
so easy I guess
I really love my job
actually
so when I’m sad and when I’m
feeling down yes I think about quitting
but
then I see something inspiring and it
makes me realize that no matter how hard
it is I will keep going forward
and I’m
not going to quit it anytime soon
sorry guys I had to turn off my camera
because my fridge was working too loud so
I had to take a break ok
let’s continue
and what I was talking about how I got
into this depression and this whole
situation I think the main reason is me
overworking and not giving myself a
break a proper rest and going really
hard to my goals
I had this huge to-do
lists where I had to like check check
check done
and I was really stressed out
when something wasn’t going on the way I
wanted it to go I had too many tasks I
was stressing out about the results and
I didn’t receive the feedback I wanted
to receive so I was like pushing myself
into the depression
everything was
leading to that and yes so I ended up
burning out
I didn’t want to do anything
at all so that’s when I was googling and
searching in YouTube why I should stop
photography but how another person can
tell you why you should stop doing what
you’re doing
yes you can hear their
experiences but it’s your story and no
one can decide about it except you I’m
sorry for my English I’m a little bit
spontaneous with this video and
to be really honest so it is what it is
so what was going on then
I didn’t want
to do anything and I was feeling lonely
and sad I was still working because I
had many clients at that moment I had a
pretty busy schedule and I needed to do my
job because I couldn’t let those people
down
and I was acting like everything’s
normal
yeah and but deep inside it wasn’t okay
for me
so how how everything ended up
I
needed to pull myself out of that
emotional breakdown
I’m going to give
you some advices what has helped me to
deal with my depression and how I’ve
pulled myself out of it as an artist and
if it will help even one person I will
be happy so
and also if you know
anything any advices for the situations
like this please let everyone know okay
what has helped me first the meditation
when I was still in this crazy situation
when I was running to the goals and
to-do lists and hoping to deal with all
that at once it has helped me to
prioritize what I need to do at the
moment and what isn’t that important so
slowly it has helped me to slow down a
little bit and and become calm
yes the next step I would suggest you to
do in this situation like this is to
give yourself a proper rest just calm
down and take a break okay
you need to
find a reason for yourself why you want
to continue doing what you’re doing
whether you’re a photographer or an
artist or a painter anyone designer
whoever you are whatever your passion is
you need to decide is it a hobby for you
or is it a work for you and how much do
you want to continue doing it because
every artistic job takes a lot of
yourself it’s you can’t break yourself
into parts and decide like this job
these are my emotions at least for me it
doesn’t work this way I’m always in the
middle and everything for me is a mix of
these emotions
emotions are helping me to
create and I think this is what the
clients are looking for in my services I
follow my god and I follow my emotions
I’m continuing photographing I’m
continuing creating art and this is my
choice but maybe for someone else
stopping would be a better choice
you
need to realize that by yourself yes
next thing is don’t ever compare
yourself to others just don’t
everybody
says that but it’s really hard not to
look at other people’s works or to other
people’s life especially in this like
social media century when you can follow
anyone and see what they’re up to I want
to show you that not everybody’s life is
perfect it may seem that you’re
traveling and you’re having fun you have
a job that you love you’re having the
time of your life basically but
it’s not the whole picture you can never
see our personal life as a whole picture
maybe he has some problems with his
family or he’s dealing with some health
issues or there are some problems with
money and budgeting and dealing with
visa problems and some bureaucracy
anything could happen to them but on
their Instagram their lives seemed
perfect and you will never know what’s
behind it
you won’t unless you’re a close friend
of that person so please stop comparing
yourself to others you can compare
yourself to yourself
and try to become a
better version of yourself that’s the
right choice if you want to compare
yourself to anybody
so yes and I guess
these are the main things that I wanted
to share with you guys
please take care
of yourself and prioritize your health
physically and emotionally don’t let
yourself down
I think this video is
pretty much long and a little bit messy
but I hope I really hope it will be
helpful in some kind of way and it will
help at least one person I will be happy
I will be really really happy please
tell me your experience have you ever
experienced depression if you did how
did you pull yourself out of it how how
you’ve been dealing with it and what
motivates you to moving forward I really
want to hear your opinion on that maybe
it will help me a little bit too so yeah
let’s support each other and help each
other growing
so yeah thank you so much
for watching I really love you guys
thank you so much for following
we’ll continue uploading videos I will
continue sharing my experience
information just everything
and for now
I am feeling really really happy
I don’t
know I feel that everything is going the
way it’s supposed to be
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